Heyyyy

"Why fake a smile when the truth is a sob? Why ignore that which should burn? Why allow that which should be prohibited? Let false simplicity expire and let the complexity, the tragedy, of truth destroy and excite humankind until there is none left but the righteous!" So proclaimed our goddess, the almighty Ray of the sun and the scribe, and the world bent at her will - plunging itself into transparent oblivion...
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So. Hi. It's been a while.
I have several points I'd like to address right today. Among them Little Lauren (duh), Axel (whom I will explain later), Annaleigh (aka generation 1 Russia, whom I will also explain), Jordan, and my parents.
Because you wanted to know, of course.
Well, let's go in that order.
Little Lauren, recently, went through a series of depressive episodes. It began with her whinging (British term, BTW, for all my fellow stupid Americans) about having to eat (she's an on-off anorexic) then the next day she told me that she'd cut for the first time in three weeks which is apparently a huge accomplishment but I still fussed at her about it then we had
this super long discussion about how worried for her I was and then things were normal- Then she dropped off the edge of the planet. I have heard nothing from her for the past four days and her upperclassmen friends (well, one of them, that I know of) are starting to worry. I dunno what to do.
Next is Axel. Axel (aka Abbey but no one calls her that) is Little Lauren's best friend/forbidden lover/whatever. She's short with short-short ginger hair and too many necklaces and a huge, obnoxious personality. I kinda sorta hate her.
It's probably just jealousy, as LLP often seems to prefer her to me, and that she's older and all Lauren used to talk about and they used to constantly flirt (though I don't think Lauren noticed) and every time I see her my mood just deflates like a bouncy house when you turn off the fan thingie. LLP's parents forbid them to talk to eachother because they don't approve of the near constant flirting and are homophobic and so many other issues, but they communicate anyway and Lauren gets in trouble which pisses me off to no extent because her phone gets taken away and she cries and cuts and shines and it just makes me so angry- *deep breath* Anyway.
Annaleigh. Russia. She's a close friend of LLP and (possibly, likely) Axel. I met her at Lauren's going away party. She's a little taller than I am (I'm 5'5") with chin length (dyed, from what I've gathered) red/burgundy hair and glasses. She's really sweet and into anime and kinda goofy and funny and she's a junior and I think... I think I might have an itty, bitty, tiiiiiny little crush on her. >////< Which is kinda an issue, as I'm in a relationship and she's recently gotten out of a bad break up so...
I was totally going to give LLP the URL to this blog. That's completely down the drain now.
Next is Jordan. He's been a bit touchy-feely and doesn't seem to get that I no longer want to talk to him. He's been annoying, sleeping in class and getting in trouble with Ms. Stafford and I don't want to be associated with that.
My parents. Oh, my parents. My mom's fucking psycho and ranted at us chillens about my father who showed up and talked her down and there were all sorts of issues. That was a couple weeks ago. Now, she's calmer and my aunt's staying the weekend while my dad takes myself and the chillens to the Great Wolf Lodge.
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Hey, it's the same post because I forgot to post this yesterday so I'm just gonna add to it before school. Lauren got her phone back and we're texting now, my dad's taking me out of school today between 10 and noon so we can go to the Great Wolf Lodge, and I got new glasses last night. They are fucking amazing, if you were wondering.
Love,
Rayy